The next five days went by rather slowly...
Aunt Flo had come to visit her and so she was stuck attending to her needs and wants.
She hated Aunt Flo but thought to herself,
once a month she really did need a break to recoup so maybe having the visits wasn't so bad after all.
Tuesday rolled around and her Aunt Flo had just said goodbye when in chimes a message...
"Nescisito sexo?"
It was C!
She felt her heart get excited!
Whereas her mind started to gather facts from fears for her by the thousands...
Though she responded almost instantly regardless...
"Yes..."
Once she sent it, she felt it...
The fear...
It kicked in...
You responded too fast.
He's gonna stand you up.
Don't get so excited.
All these fears kept trying to ruin her good vibe.
Her heart had gotten excited...
Why couldn't her mind just go with it?
So she quieted her mind and told it...
Listen...
Even if he doesn't show, or even if it doesn't happen..
You will be fine.
You will enjoy your night.
And if you really need sex, someone will always be there.
Never fear.
The Ego was good, she had to admit that much.
So she went about her job.
At work...
At work...
She was working the self checkout,
when the red light started to blink at one of the registers.
when the red light started to blink at one of the registers.
As she headed to it, she saw him...
Spiky hair with blonde tips..
Thin smooth built body just the way she liked it.
And a nice silver watch on his wrist which amplified his smooth manly hand.
She always had a thing for hands..
She wasn't sure why..
But when she saw them it was like she could feel them on her..
And his hands looked so sexy and manly that she could feel them doing all kinds of bad things to her!
She snapped herself out of that thought when
she felt her heart speed up...
She wasn't about to let herself get carried away in a fantasy... at least not while she was at work..
As she grounded herself back down to earth,
She approached him and sarcastically asked him,
She snapped herself out of that thought when
she felt her heart speed up...
She wasn't about to let herself get carried away in a fantasy... at least not while she was at work..
As she grounded herself back down to earth,
She approached him and sarcastically asked him,
"What did you do!?"
Then she giggled and said, "I'm just kidding, How can I help you?"
He looked at her and let out a soft nervous laugh.
He seemed shy.
He was Asian!
This was something new for her!
She flirted the best she could...
She even left him at one point with a manager and then came back in the end to see if he missed her, and sure enough he did.
She could tell.
As he was ready to leave, they both lingered on the 'good-byes'...
She mentioned to him how she admired his watch and he looked rather pleased with the compliment.
But she couldn't just let that be the end of it so she touched his arm softly and said,
"I hope you come again." and then she gave his arm a light squeeze.
He smiled, looked at her and said,
"I will."
And there he went.
Her next fantasy.
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The night was coming to an end and so was her shift.
And then she remembered C..
After she clocked out, she messaged him.
"Am I coming to get you?"
He writes back,
"I'm in Fairfax right now."
She didn't think and just responded with,
"Ok, have your friends drop you off at my place."
He responds with
"Ok"
The night rolls on...
She finishes making a video, shops, and then is finally at home watching a movie and drinking beer..
When she looks at the clock and realizes it's already 1:50am.
She thinks to herself...
Did I misunderstand his message?
Was he telling her his location and she told him to have his friends drop him off?
And then it hits her...
F.........ck!!!!
She f*cked up utterly!
She picks up her phone immediately and writes,
"Do you need me to get you?"
But she knew...
It was too late.
So she let's her hopes die.
She turns on TikTok and starts watching all the hot Asian's dancing
when...
DiNG!
A message!
It's Tric...
She was definitely not expecting that, especially on a Tuesday.night.
Tric was her Friday's... At least that's how she had configured it.
Tric begins to message her, asking her how she is and how her week was.
Tric was always so sincere.
She really liked that about him.
As they continued to chat, it turned into the usual sexual banter that went back and forth until she finally got tired of it and just basically threw him into a corner.
"You suck!"
she wrote out of retaliation.
"Good night Tric!"
He must have really felt her slam the door to their invisible communication lines,
because he responded super fast with,
"No, I'm coming over!"
She was so annoyed, she actually meant it when she wrote,
"No, just stay with your friends."
But he wasn't taking 'No' for an answer.
"I'm on my way."
She took a deep breath and exhaled slowly before responding...
"Ok... Fine... "
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As she was waiting for Tric to show up, her mind started to ask her...
What about C?
She answered that thought with another thought..
He's not responding.
Not her problem she thought.
But she knew her problem was that she messed up.
She knew she had a problem.
She was afraid to be vulnerable.
She never listened to her heart.
She was always trying to protect it with her mind.
She didn't want to seem weak.
She didn't want to be rejected.
But this way...
She self sabotaged herself and anything that could ever really be.
She knew this.
So what was she going to do?
Well right now, she was going to do Tric.
She knew that much.
And right as she thought about that, in chimed a message,
"I'm here!"
She walked down stairs and greeted him at the door.
The greeting was nothing like the greeting with C.
Tric was more reserved.
He was forbidden fruit, so he had to maintain his promise to another.
The sex however was always so incredible!
Was it because she knew nothing could ever happen between them?
So she knew she couldn't fall prey to the thing called relationships.
So she knew she couldn't fall prey to the thing called relationships.
Was it because she knew that one day it would all be gone and so she was trying to get the best out of it each time?
Or was it...
The way he handled her?
Like she was a delicate flower and he didn't want to break what he had.
Was it in the way he allowed himself to feel her,
and her responses to his trusts and touches...
and her responses to his trusts and touches...
He knew how to really create a connection..
And that is what she desired the most!
Maybe he knew that and made sure to up his game like a pro.
She didn't care.
She was pleased with his deliverance.
Every time.
And that's all that mattered to her.
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Maybe he knew that and made sure to up his game like a pro.
She didn't care.
She was pleased with his deliverance.
Every time.
And that's all that mattered to her.
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The next day, sh*t got REAL...
She woke up to a message from Eddie!
Eddie...
Her here then gone guy.
The one that comes to her with the sweetest of words.
The one that tries to write in English for her the best he could.
Eddie..
the one that never kisses..
Never stays.
Hits it then leaves for a month.
That Eddie.
So she opens his message.
He wants to see her.
She doesn't really know if she wants to or not..
She hadn't even had her coffee yet...
So she writes back...
"When?"
She knew that question would buy her time to really wake up and respond with more confidence.
or perhaps more of a caffeine rush.
Either way... she needed to regroup from seeing Tric when really she was supposed to be with C, whom left her hanging...
Or whom she left hanging somewhere in Fairfax begging for a ride home.
She didn't want to think about that.
She knew she was being ridiculous.
He was a grown a$$ man and could definitely take care of himself.
And with thought, she got the idea to throw him a bone just to see if he'd still act accordingly..
"Sex tonight?" she wrote.
And then hit send...
Out into the void it went!
When she got back upstairs with her coffee in hand, she checked her phone and saw that Eddie responded to her question with a question...
"Want to get together tomorrow?"
She thought about Thursday.
It was her day off.
So she quickly thought...
Why not?
And so she sent her response.
"Sure, sounds good."
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Later that night just as she was heading home from work,
She gets a message from Tric!
Two days in a row and it's not even Friday...
She thought to herself..
Something's not right...
It wasn't like Tric to be this active.
First thought to cross her mind was,
Trouble in Paradise!
Not her problem, she thought...
Her problem rested right in front of her face.
The text message of...
"My friend wants to do a threesome!"
Her first thought was...
Oh lord, here we go again...
Another awkward moment in the car...
But then she remembered...
She had the house all to herself that night.
So she asks Tric for a photo.
Of course, like a man, he sends photos of body parts and not the actual persons face...
She laughs to herself...
What is it with men?
But so she asks again only being more specific this time.
She gets an actual image.
She was so thankful.
She looks at the picture and thinks to herself,
Not bad.
But then it kicks in...
She has Eddie on the line for the next day.
Does she really want to do this?
Her answer came so quick and so easily...
NO!
She knew she didn't want to.
She knew this was not her idea.
It was Tric's fantasy.
And she also knew she was not here to satisfy anyone's fantasies but her own.
So she responded to Tric with truth.
She told him no,
For the first time.
He was shocked..
He even tried to make her feel bad by saying,
"Why are you being so difficult?"
She didn't care.
Sticks and stones may break the bones
but words never hurt her!
She knew her truth and stood by it proudly.
She told him she had Eddie on the line and that she would rather wait for him...
But she knew that really wasn't the truth either.
Cuz she knew that Tric could please her so much better then Eddie
since Eddie never kissed her.
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As she put down her phone for the night,
She lay in her bed thinking...
What would she do if C wrote her tomorrow?
Would she still go with Eddie?
Or would she pick C?
And she wondered...
Now that she said no to Tric,
Would he come around again?
Then she realized this was all just her fears.
So she let them go with each exhale as she closed her eyes
and let the sandman bring her a dream...
Which of course turned into a nightmare the very next day when she woke up to a message from
C!
She woke up to a message from Eddie!
Eddie...
Her here then gone guy.
The one that comes to her with the sweetest of words.
The one that tries to write in English for her the best he could.
Eddie..
the one that never kisses..
Never stays.
Hits it then leaves for a month.
That Eddie.
So she opens his message.
He wants to see her.
She doesn't really know if she wants to or not..
She hadn't even had her coffee yet...
So she writes back...
"When?"
She knew that question would buy her time to really wake up and respond with more confidence.
or perhaps more of a caffeine rush.
Either way... she needed to regroup from seeing Tric when really she was supposed to be with C, whom left her hanging...
Or whom she left hanging somewhere in Fairfax begging for a ride home.
She didn't want to think about that.
She knew she was being ridiculous.
He was a grown a$$ man and could definitely take care of himself.
And with thought, she got the idea to throw him a bone just to see if he'd still act accordingly..
"Sex tonight?" she wrote.
And then hit send...
Out into the void it went!
When she got back upstairs with her coffee in hand, she checked her phone and saw that Eddie responded to her question with a question...
"Want to get together tomorrow?"
She thought about Thursday.
It was her day off.
So she quickly thought...
Why not?
And so she sent her response.
"Sure, sounds good."
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Later that night just as she was heading home from work,
She gets a message from Tric!
Two days in a row and it's not even Friday...
She thought to herself..
Something's not right...
It wasn't like Tric to be this active.
First thought to cross her mind was,
Trouble in Paradise!
Not her problem, she thought...
Her problem rested right in front of her face.
The text message of...
"My friend wants to do a threesome!"
Her first thought was...
Oh lord, here we go again...
Another awkward moment in the car...
But then she remembered...
She had the house all to herself that night.
So she asks Tric for a photo.
Of course, like a man, he sends photos of body parts and not the actual persons face...
She laughs to herself...
What is it with men?
But so she asks again only being more specific this time.
She gets an actual image.
She was so thankful.
She looks at the picture and thinks to herself,
Not bad.
But then it kicks in...
She has Eddie on the line for the next day.
Does she really want to do this?
Her answer came so quick and so easily...
NO!
She knew she didn't want to.
She knew this was not her idea.
It was Tric's fantasy.
And she also knew she was not here to satisfy anyone's fantasies but her own.
So she responded to Tric with truth.
She told him no,
For the first time.
He was shocked..
He even tried to make her feel bad by saying,
"Why are you being so difficult?"
She didn't care.
Sticks and stones may break the bones
but words never hurt her!
She knew her truth and stood by it proudly.
She told him she had Eddie on the line and that she would rather wait for him...
But she knew that really wasn't the truth either.
Cuz she knew that Tric could please her so much better then Eddie
since Eddie never kissed her.
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As she put down her phone for the night,
She lay in her bed thinking...
What would she do if C wrote her tomorrow?
Would she still go with Eddie?
Or would she pick C?
And she wondered...
Now that she said no to Tric,
Would he come around again?
Then she realized this was all just her fears.
So she let them go with each exhale as she closed her eyes
and let the sandman bring her a dream...
Which of course turned into a nightmare the very next day when she woke up to a message from
C!
