Wednesday, March 16, 2022

The helping Hand that slaps...

 Sometimes in life, it's not easy to just say,

 "okay, I quit."

Especially when you have chosen to live with a person,

and all your stuff is now 'Ours' and not just 'Mine' any more. 


This is exactly what she was dealing with in the here and now.
After being spit in the face by her one true love,
she arrived later that night to her Flag, Journal, and work shirt 
all thrown out the window onto the front lawn.
She picked them up and took them inside.
He was busy in the bathroom so she sat at the edge of the bed and 
just listened to her music for a bit 
until he came back into the room and proved to be 
harmless.
He went to bed... 
And soon thereafter, so did she.

The next day however... He wanted to reconcile.
She never did a thing.
Yet he gave her the upper hand to reconcile.
Was that even right?

She realized that a lot of people would think it so,
but truth was... 
That no...
NO it wasn't.

The whole scenario
was invented by him.
Delivered by him,
and then finished by him.
So where did she come into play at all?
Why was he giving her the reins on 
making the decision
to be together?
They never parted.
She just left an argument.
Went and did what she loved to do. 

He's the one who decided to 
go all out and destroy
her stuff while she was out. 
He's the one that crossed the boundary lines.
Shouldn't he have been the one to 
come to his senses
and apologize for his destructive
behavior caused by
his own insecurities?

Yes. 
Yes he should have. 
But because he didn't and because she fell for it...
It continued to spiral downward. 

Power is something we all crave..
But how we own it is the real question.
Power is never out there.
You don't gain it because someone asks, 
"are we still together?" 

Power is had when you see the real truth. 
The truth of a situation
in it's entirety.
The whole picture from a birds eye point of view.

And you stick to your own truth.
Your part. 
Your Half.
And that is a relationship...
Relating with another,
in the same boat!

So then... what was she to do now?





 




Tuesday, March 15, 2022

The Fall

 The spray of wetness from his spit,

Seized her face 

like a war  to be had...

She wasn't really shocked though.

She was already totally beat up by his insecure actions from the nights before.

Insecurity and self sabotage came hand in hand and she knew already...

That three's a crowd...

So when the spit hit..



She knew it was a sign to split..

But she wasn't one to leave without a hit..

So she took her best shot!

She spoke to him all that she had been holding back..

She wanted him to see his strengths...

His truths...

His own weaknesses..

So that he could own them..

And be more powerful...

But his Ego didn't agree to those terms...

His Ego wanted to win.

At all cost.

Including the relationship.

And so it was...

The Pride

Cometh

Before the Fall...

And so it did.







Thursday, March 3, 2022

Discovering truths

 As she sat in the bar, drinking her beer, 

Doing what she enjoyed the most, writing...

She couldn't help but shake the thought that everything in her relationship world was falling apart.

Her boyfriend had just text several insecure texts to her..

Some rather very harsh and rude accusations to say the least.

 And then she remembered..

This was just a thought.

Sure her boyfriend had his insecurities.

And she knew they were his, that's for sure.

She knew herself very well. 

She was a great woman.

Kind.

Caring.

Loving.

Understanding.

Full of joy!

And very trusting.

She knew that in order for another person to feel her as the same..

That she would have to first do them with herself.

And that is exactly why tonight...

She was kind caring loving understanding full of joy and trusting in herself to do what her heart truly wanted and desired. 

And so she took another sip of her favorite beer..

And continued to write the rest of her blog..

Till the next chapter happens..