It was Sunday Night and she had just gotten home from a long day at work. She realized she was more tired this time around since she had stayed up really late with C and then had to be up early just to take him home.
She wondered... Why was she even going out of her way for a guy who didn't even really talk to her, let alone want to even know anything about her other then what he could get from her.
She turned on the television and sat down with her bowl of cereal and began watching her favorite movie just to forget the fact that she was well aware of these facts.
She laughed out loud and enjoyed her night of distraction when she decided it was time for bed. She went to the bathroom and washed off her make-up and put on her Pajamas.
Just as she was plugging her phone into the charger, there was a Ding!
It was Tric!
Tric started the conversation with, "So... how are you and the boyfriend?"
She knew though...
He was looking for it...
The validation...
She knew...
Because that is what she did.
And Tric was her reflection.
---TRIC---
It was the end of Summer with Fall coming just around the corner when she was at her favorite park looking for inspiration.
She really enjoyed coming up with cute little videos to share her messages to the world around her.
She got the idea to share her message about making wishes and how they never really work because everything happens in the NOW...
As she was by the river, with a dandelion in hand... the perfect idea came to mind.
She got her camera ready and just as she was about to start the video, this guy came into the picture.
He had two little boys around him and they were running a muck free as birds!
She paused and waited patiently for him and his boys to continue along their path and leave her to making her video...
Unfortunately, he lingered.
He waved to her acknowledging her presence and that he saw her, but yet he didn't leave.
She pretended to be watching the river, but the whole time, she just wanted him to move on so she could get back to her idea.
After what seemed like eternity... He took his boys and they continued up the trail towards the park play area.
Finally, she thought... Free to work on me.
She finishes her video and heads home for the day.
The next day, she is back at her favorite park and is walking up the path she always takes...
Headset on, Music blaring, her body moving with the beat as she is walking.
She's in her own world when she feels music.
She feels light as air!
Just floating, flying, gliding...
As she's in her own world, just up ahead she sees
the guy and his two boys again...
Same place they were the other day when she was making her video.
He waved to her and she waved back... Then when she got closer, she decided to take off her headset and ask him...
"Are they twins?"
And with that...
A two hour conversation while playing with the two boys together ensued...
The time went by so fast but the memory was one for the books.
He mentioned seeing her before...
And how he was really intrigued by her ability to be so independent, free, and happy.
This was music to her ears!
When he said the words, "I had seen you before" it let her know that he was interested.
Call it illusion.
Call it Delusion..
She was a Pisces..
Neptune ruled her..
Blinded her.
and she liked it.
So before leaving, they exchanged Instagram profiles.
------
She opened the message from Tric
and thought about what to respond to his question...
"How are you and the boyfriend?"
He wanted validation..
She wanted Truth...
So she rubbed it in real good...
"We're ok", she responded.
But she knew that was a greatly over exaggerated version of the real truth.
But it got him where she wanted him.
He began asking her all kinds of self reassurance questions..
How was it?
Is it bigger?
Better?
How many times?
She blew off all his questions making him thirst for so much more...
Then he gave up on the search and just said to her...
"Come see me!"
Her heart jumped...
She wanted to so bad.
But the fight began in her mind...
You're tired.
You just took C home this morning.
Your car is bad.
But her heart was feeling a tug...
So she responded...
"My car is bad.. you'd have to come to me."
She figured with those words, she would totally call his bluff.
But to her surprise she got the exact opposite.
"I'm on my way!"
His words rang over and over in her mind...
Shit! she wasn't ready!
She immediately barked back,
"NO!"
"you can't!!! Not tonight."
He wrote...
"I'm on the road already."
She reassured..
"No... I'm serious, you can't!"
She was in a dream turned nightmare come true...
She wanted him but not like this...
And part of her knew...
He was forbidden fruit.
Those two boys didn't come from a store.
They were a product of his love for another.
But the connection they had was beyond real..
Her mind said No,
LOUD and clear...
But the animal inside her always whispered,
yes...
When he said the words, "I had seen you before" it let her know that he was interested.
Call it illusion.
Call it Delusion..
She was a Pisces..
Neptune ruled her..
Blinded her.
and she liked it.
So before leaving, they exchanged Instagram profiles.
------
She opened the message from Tric
and thought about what to respond to his question...
"How are you and the boyfriend?"
He wanted validation..
She wanted Truth...
So she rubbed it in real good...
"We're ok", she responded.
But she knew that was a greatly over exaggerated version of the real truth.
But it got him where she wanted him.
He began asking her all kinds of self reassurance questions..
How was it?
Is it bigger?
Better?
How many times?
She blew off all his questions making him thirst for so much more...
Then he gave up on the search and just said to her...
"Come see me!"
Her heart jumped...
She wanted to so bad.
But the fight began in her mind...
You're tired.
You just took C home this morning.
Your car is bad.
But her heart was feeling a tug...
So she responded...
"My car is bad.. you'd have to come to me."
She figured with those words, she would totally call his bluff.
But to her surprise she got the exact opposite.
"I'm on my way!"
His words rang over and over in her mind...
Shit! she wasn't ready!
She immediately barked back,
"NO!"
"you can't!!! Not tonight."
He wrote...
"I'm on the road already."
She reassured..
"No... I'm serious, you can't!"
She was in a dream turned nightmare come true...
She wanted him but not like this...
And part of her knew...
He was forbidden fruit.
Those two boys didn't come from a store.
They were a product of his love for another.
But the connection they had was beyond real..
Her mind said No,
LOUD and clear...
But the animal inside her always whispered,
yes...
